Why is trusting God so hard? We know He is faithful, we know He is going to do the best in the situation so why do we have such a hard time trusting Him???
Right now, ONCE AGAIN I can't sleep. But this time it's because I can't stop thinking about this situation (I don't want to say "problem" because that sounds bad) that I find myself in. I was given a position in our Women's Ministry at church. Myself and the director came up with this plan for Bible studies for the women. I was very excited and everyone I talked to about fascilitating was excited and on board also!! I figured it was obviously from God because that just doesn't happen. And now there is a huge curve ball thrown at us and I'm just not sure what to do. I'm pretty sure I'm hearing from God that I need to be the one to make the big change and do things differently with my study. Now we just need to get Danny on board with it. I also don't want to stifle the excitement of these other women. Hopefully they won't have the control issues I have and will just go with it.
Right now I'm just praying that what I'm hearing from God is right (but based on the very timely study I'm doing right now...it is), that Danny agrees to what I'm going to present and that the attendees will "think outside the box" also and get on board with what the church is wanting to try.
I'm so bad right now trying to just "let go and let God", but my prideful, selfish self just keeps wanting to hang on to it!!
WAIT ON THE LORD (Psalm 27:14)
ReplyDeleteThere are hours of perplexity when the most willing spirit, eagerly desirous to serve the Lord, knows not what part to take. Then what shall it do? Vex itself by despair? Fly back in cowardice, turn to the right hand in fear, or rush forward in presumption? No, but simply wait. Wait in prayer, however. Call upon God, and spread the case before Him; tell Him your difficulty, and plead His promise of aid.
In dilemmas between one duty and another, it is sweet to be as humble as a child, and wait with simplicity of soul upon the Lord. But wait in faith. Express your unwavering confidence in him...Believe that if He will keep you tarrying even till midnight, yet He will come at the right time; the vision shall come and shall not tarry. Wait in quiet patience, not rebelling because you are under the affliction, but blessing your God for it" (Charles Haddon Spurgeon-How to Converse with God).